Goodbye

 

I am leaving Filianism.

 

All I can really say is that this was not my plan, and it took me completely by surprise. I did not intend to, but ended up taking some time to delve into some things that I had not looked at in a long time while I let this page run in the background (yay for scheduling things out ahead of time, lol).

 
While I did love Filianism and I find many beautiful things about it to appreciate, over this past spring, I found myself leaning more and more toward Deanism and worship of the Mother alone. Initially, I had been planning on making small changes to how to ran my pages, what kinds of images I would make. I was beginning to struggle again with some verses, even on images I was making (particularly 3:5:55, as I don't think anymore that we all have a personal truth) as I brushed up against some new books that changed my perspective on some things, saw a couple of videos that made me pause.

Then I was watching lots of videos, lectures, debates, going down the rabbit hole we've all been down at least once in our lives, trying to find answers to all the problems I had in the past. I've been finding those answers.

There came a tipping point where I realized I was embracing another faith altogether, where then I had to struggle with what to do with my page. I've gone back and forth between telling you all what's going on or just deleting everything with no explanation because I don't know if I'm brave enough to be completely honest. At the same time, I feel awful about having misled people with my outreach. Just deleting everything without letting people know what happened felt too cowardly to do. And I'd hate to leave everyone wondering what happened. I'm going to really miss everyone, and I don't want to leave you hanging.

I'm not 100% sure what's going to happen in the future, if I'll keep going in the direction I am, though I hope I will--but I can't call myself a Filiani anymore. I'm not becoming a Christian (don't worry, haha); I'm fully embracing pure monotheism. I will probably delete everything soon, though it is a difficult decision: it is hard to let go of what was a pretty good chunk of my life.

Thank you for reading, for being there with me along the way, and I wish you all the best going forward.

Goodbye!!

~x~